I Think I Can
I thought everything was out of my control in this place where love and addiction meet—all of the problems consuming my son, and therefore, also consuming me. The swirling vortex of headache and heartache…all of the assorted aches pressing in on my soul. I thought I didn’t have enough skill or strength, or enough fingers and toes to plug up all the damn holes in the dam. I thought I had no control over anything in this place that is so out of control, with all the bad things that keep popping up out of nowhere, or creeping into my space through the backdoor, and rearing their ugly heads.
I thought I couldn’t control anything at all, but now I think I can.
You see, whatever happens in this place where love and addiction meet goes through a filter. And that filter is me. I may not have control over what comes in, but I do have control—for better or worse—over what comes out the other end. My life is in my control from that point onward.
I think I can make my future mine.
It is what it is. But it will become what you make it. ~Unknown
Quoted from the app ‘Readings for Moms of Addicts’ available in the App Store or Google Play. (c) Sandra Swenson.
“We may often feel fragile, but we are strong. And we are many.
We have the power to overpower the destruction that addiction spreads.”
Sandra Swenson is the author of The Joey Song: A Mother’s Story of Her Son’s Addiction (Central Recovery Press 2014), Tending Dandelions: Honest Meditations for Mothers with Addicted Children (Hazelden 2017), the Readings for Moms of Addicts app (Hazelden 2018), and her blog.
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