What led you to finally seek recovery?
Question: My loved one has tried every pathway with the hopes of lasting recovery. What led you to finally seek recovery from active addiction?
I would love more than anything to write that I achieved recovery through my own desire or spiritual awakening. That is not my story, though. My recovery began with divine intervention removing me from society and placing me in the care of Massachusetts Correctional Institution.
After years of trying everything—medication-assisted treatment, intensive outpatient programs, residential facilities, geographical cures, and Twelve Step programs—what eventually led me to freedom was incarceration. By the time I was thirty years old, I lived to use and used to live. I convinced myself that I was “constitutionally incapable” of recovery or deserving of a better life. After I’d been on probation for close to five years, my probation officer requested that my probation be revoked and had me detained for noncompliance. Today, I honestly thank God for my probation officer! She knew I was on a path of destruction, and she knew I was no longer fit for supervised probation. As ironic as it sounds, I remember feeling relieved the day I was finally detained, as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I was no longer able to run!
Once held, I was informed of a jail diversion program called drug court. Drug courts are specifically for persons with substance use disorders. These court programs offer individuals the opportunity to enter long-term drug treatment and agree to court supervision rather than receive a jail sentence. The intensive program requires participants to maintain recovery, take on responsibilities, and work toward lifestyle changes. Under the supervision and authority of the court, their progress is monitored.
Completely unaware of drug court, or what the commitment entailed, I agreed for the sole purpose of being released from the correctional facility. The drug court team decided to place me in an all-female, six- to twelve-month behavioral modification program. I was required to remain substance free, comply with both house and court guidelines, attend daily meetings, go to therapy, and hold a job. I never expected to learn a new way of life free from drugs and alcohol.
Honestly, what led me to recovery was severe consequences, a strict team who held me accountable, and a program that taught me how to live. I began using around age eighteen, and by thirty, I was chronically homeless, unemployable, and hopeless. Drug court and the women’s residential home became my family. I was retaught how to a be an honest productive member of society. I graduated from the residential home after twelve months, and after eighteen months, I graduated from drug court. Without the guidance and support from both, I know I would not be alive today.
For more information about Drug Court please visit https://ndcrc.org/what-are-drug-courts-2/.
A Daughter’s Perspective
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Keriann Caccavaro is a recovery coach, drug court advocate, and woman in long term recovery helping to support people struggling with addiction and their families. You can learn more about her on LinkedIn or Facebook.
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